Thursday, February 28, 2013

...because i need to vent some frustration....

the act of "holding one's shit together" is something i do pretty well...
usually. 
but, for the next 7 days...and then until March 18...
i'll be lucky to get out of the house with my sox matching.

long story short....my oldest will take the high school entrance exam next wednesday and thursday.


this particular test is for one public school.
and he gets one chance.
that's it.
one.

in january, he took exams for two private schools.
he passed those.

but...he really needs to pass this next one.
public school is relatively free.
private school is  *cough...gasp...gag* not.

and this, my friends, scares me.
the very idea that we would have to borrow money for him to go to high school....
is just wrong.

test...march 6 & 7
graduation...march 15
announcement of public exam...march 18
if he passes?  celebrating, knowing that all we really have to pay for is his uniforms,
 will begin soon after hearing the results.
if he doesn't? we have one day to get to the private school he chooses to attend,
major cash in hand (120,000 yen/$1304) for the entrance fee and
let them know he will be attending.

that, my friends, is a lot of yen.

yeah.
stressed.

oh...and just in case you are wondering....the monthly school fees for those two private schools are both around 38,000 yen/$423.
every month.


i'm like a duck...

on the top of the water, 
all calm and cool and "dah di dah di dah" (that's singing, by the way)
but underneath?
 paddling like crazy to keep from sinking.
that's me.

the thing is....my boy knows how important this is.
but....i'm trying to keep it calm....not freak him out.
he's the one who has to take the test and be all charming for the interview. 
(oh yeah...did i not mention an interview?)
he's been studying...going to two different tutors to help him.
he has his own stress to deal with.

so...for me...
stress means....
i'm not sleeping very well.
my stomach feels hoojie more often than not.
i'm spending waaay more time over on facebook than what i usually do.
oh...and....yeah....

that.

major change in eating and exercise habits....march 20.

keep us in your thoughts....and if you have any
"keeping from going freakin' crazy" prayers....
send those my way, please.

thank goodness it's almost spring and at least we have the
promise of warmer weather....hopefully soon.
*the ume/plum blossoms in our garden...
blooming even as i type, i'm sure*








12 comments:

smalltownme said...

What a crazy system! Hang in there!

ms-teacher said...

he's got this. Make sure to remind us again on THE day so we can send a wave of positive vibes to wash over him on the big day!

Cheri @ Blog This Mom!® said...

Good vibes are on the way. Meanwhile, you eat the Thin Mints! XO

Janet said...

Positive thoughts!!! Hang in there!

Karen (formerly kcinnova) said...

Holy handbells!! What a load of stress to place on a kid and his family!
Breathe... have some ice cream (that's what I'm doing right now... what?) and prayers for peace.

Clare Maree said...

Sending many super good wishes your and your boy's way. Hang on in there!

dkuroiwa said...

thanks all for the positive thoughts (and Thin Mints...which one box? is being slowly eaten...little by little...by moi!!)

i will most definitely let you know, as the days count down, for all to give us a huge rush of good thoughts....that? would be most appreciated.

thanks, my good friends... **muah**

cookingwithgas said...

Wow, I would never have known how difficult the process for schooling would be. Best of luck for the best outcome.

Jenn @ Juggling Life said...

That is so crazy. I cannot imagine; sending good juju.

Busy Bee Suz said...

Oh my...no stress or anything. NOT.
I'll be thinking of you all. You know, in the end, it is what it is. It will be what it will be. So don't stress so much, things happen for a reason. Right?
Love the update. Love to you all
XO
Suz

Mrs. G. said...

Good thoughts on the way...right now. I am blown away by the pressure to enter public school. Fingers crossed!!!

OffOnAWhim said...

I totally know what you're going through!! My oldest is has her final test for public university, if she doesn't get in, not sure what we will do. It's really stressing me out! Fortunately the younger girl has a chance to attend HS in the States, so one bit of stress has been relieved :)